30 March 2008

Killing Time... Daylight Saving Time

watching the new series of Gladiators on tv

can't wait to watch new ROVE tonight! YAY

Not liking this daylight savings ending. It's only 7pm but my body is saying 8pm grrr

not feeling very well... i have this awful cough that makes my chest hurt

I'm bored...

i think i need anger management or something, cos i'm always getting pissed at my sister when she asks me questions.... but they're always such stupid questions.

dad ate all the ice cream

i'm feeling slightly emo

my chest hurts, my body is telling me it's 8pm when it's only 7pm

i having "what the f888 am i suppose to do with my life" moments

I'm hating this slow internet... AHHHHH!

do you wanna see a nice photo (warning... boyxboy kissage... haha)

click here

27 March 2008

The Emotional Rollercoster That Is Me... Today!

I feel... blah... I don't know what I feel. I'm sad... i think, I have nothing to look foward too, I'm broke (and not getting any more money in until next friday) and I'm tired... and have to have an injection tomorrow (freaking out) and my sister gets to go to bali and I'm not, and I don't want to work at a video shop anymore, and I don't know if I want to work in the IT industry, but I don't know what I want to do.

I feel old (I'm only 21) I've never been in a serious relationship, I feel fat (cos I am) and just overall depressed. I don't have very many friends, and I'm not very social, so I'm not really making any new one... considering I don't even go out with the friends I already have.

I feel like I don't belong. I want to rebel, but I'm 21... I think I've left it a bit late. I'm not rebelling against anything... I just want to be different, but on the other hand I'm afraid of what people think.

I'm always more worried about the other persons feelings before my own. Like tonight, the boss accidently rostered on 2 seniors (me and another women) and I said that I would stay, even though I have cramps, feel like shit and am freaking out about my needle tomorrow... I got myself so knotted up about asking if she would stay and I could go home, that I made myself puke. So she sent me home.

I do realise what all this emotion is caused by... HORMONES... haha... it happens all the time... or hormones are just an excuse women made up to get away with being moody. I don't like feeling moody... my moods are always the extremes. I'm either so happy and boncy that it seems like I'm on drugs or drunk, or so sad and depressed, or frustrated... that I seriously think that I have a underlying mental problem. but it all washes away after a few days, and then a month later... it's back.

I don't know... maybe I do have an underlying mental problem... maybe I am manically depressed... I don't know... maybe i'm bipolar... but maybe its just hormones.

See I feel slightly better now. The anxiety is gone (well most of it).

I have this huge list of things I want to do... I want to cut and dye my hair some outrageous colour, I want to get my lip pierced and get a heartagram tattoo on my wrist. I want to lose heaps of weight so that I can wear all the awesome clothes I've always wanted to.

I want to relive highschool with the knowledge that I have now... That I don't have to worry about what people think... I can have my own opinions and music taste (instead of liking what my friends like) I would love to go back to school and be the goth I always wanted to be, but never had the guts to do.

I want to tell all the people that were mean to me... ONE in particular... that she's a awful bitch, and that no matter what she says or does to me, does not make her a better person... OMG this girl while I was at highschool... OMFG.... BITCH!

She wasn't one of the "other" girls... she was one of my friends... at least I thought she was... OMG... she was the "queen bee" of our group... I think. I think I would be the first one to say it... but now when I look back and think about it, it was bloody fucking obvious. She would get me to help organise "surprise" parties for one of the other girls... than a couple of days before the party.... after all the hard work organisation... she would say that it was cancelled for some reason... but then... OMG this is the good part... I would later find out that the party went ahead... and everyone went... except me... it makes me so angry to think about it. You should of seen me when I found out... I had a nervous breakdown... it was the breaker (after heaps of other things that were done) OMG I can't talk about it... let just say... I know whose not coming to any of my significant events. HAHAHA tough shit t.

anyway... this was one pretty long and slightly deep blog. HAHAHA hope it doesn't scare anyone... I'm usually such a lovely person too. =D

26 March 2008

I Can Now Die Happy...


Him_Concert, originally uploaded by Princess Geek.

OMFG... The HIM concert was AWESOME... Better than AWESOME... there are NO words to describe how much better than AWESOME it was... OMG!

It was held @ Metro City (thats a nightclub) in Perth, and it was on the 23rd March. It was aweseome... the venue was small so even if you were at the back you were still 10 metres away... OMFG I was 10 metres away from Ville Valo... VILLE VALO!

The photo above (unfortunatly) was the best photo out of the 100s I took. The rest were blurry... I have some video footage, but my internet isn't fast enough to upload it... one day I'll get around to it.

The best bit of the concert was that my under 18 friend got it (the concert was 18+) I've probably mentioned it in an earlier blog. We were so worried that she wouldn't get in, and it wouldn't of been the same without her.

OMG I can't stop smiling. It was truly amazing. Readers... you must understand that HIM is my favouritest band in the whole fucking universe... and I've actually seen them live... They sang 15 songs (I think... I'm pretty sure... but I had a couple of little "OMG it's Ville Valo" blackout moments) I can't remember what order they went it... they performed "Passion's Killing Floor" first, and "Funeral Of Hearts" last... that all I remember! (I was so excited)

They sang (not in this order) - Join Me, Buried Alive By Love, Right Here In My Arms, The Funeral Of Hearts, Your Sweet 666, Poison Girl, Rip out the Wings of a Butterfly, Killing Loneliness, Wicked Game, It's All Tears (Drown In This Love), Soul On Fire, Passion's Killing Floor, The Kiss of Dawn, Sleepwalking Past Hope, Bleed Well.

IT WAS FUCKING AMAZING!!!!

17 March 2008

St Patricks Day


St Patricks Day, originally uploaded by Princess Geek.

I hope you're all wearing some green today???
I've got my green converses on!
Don't you love the photo???
I want one of those dogs =D

*HAPPY ST PATRICKS DAY*

15 March 2008

Random Ass Bored Moment


Nerd Button Badges, originally uploaded by koolbadges.com.

I want to clean my room, but instead I'm on the net looking at fanfiction.net.

I'm listening to songs that I haven't listened to for awhile... ie Panic! At The Disco, My Chemical Romance, The Darkness etc.
I AM SO BORED!

anyone reading this is probably bored... cos... well it's the only reason why anyone would read this.

People write some random shit on fanfiction.net. hahaha I've almost become inspired to write my own!!

Order of geek badges (like the ones in the photo) from www.koolbadges.co.uk

13 March 2008

Dream


Gorbys Nightclub, originally uploaded by donncha


I had a dream last night that I owned this awesome nightclub, that had a similar entrance to the photo. It just looks like a dank little alley, but it was the entrance to the awesomess nightclub. It was in the basement and was called "Hell" and it was lucious and dark and plush but also seedy (hahaha) I remember walking in and there was a bar, and the dance floor was sunken, and there was a stage, and backstage there was another private bar, and a room with plush sofas, it was awesome... so now I want to open my own nightclub. I don't know where it would be... not in albany... and the dj would play good music (not shitty dance pop shit) and we would have cool live bands, like MSI, him and other awesome bands (from finland mostly). My cousin and I decided that Finnish people should be aloud free admission. And the bar would serve awesome cocktails like bloody mary's, zombies and other red gory named drinks. OMFG it could be really cool.

Contact me in 10 years or so and ask me how i'm going =D hahaha

I can't really say that I've ever actually been in a nightclub... actually I don't think I ever had (hahaha geek) and yeah. I think the first nightclub I'm going to go in is Metro City... in 10 days (10 fucking days OMFG) for the HIM concert.... OMG 10 days! woohoo...

*hyperventilate*

OMG YAY!

10 March 2008

Obsession ALERT!

I've been to listening to Mindless Self Indulgence for the last week, and I really love it. I already had the album "Tight" but I ipodnapped and "extracted" all the MSI songs she had. I found 2 that I remember being performed @ SOUNDWAVE. "Shut Me Up" and "Mastermind"
I must say that MSI is very different to the music that I listened to previously =D and I fucking love Jimmy Urine (even though he turns 40 next year, and looks like he's in his teens)

13th March - I just had a look back at my recent blogs... hehehe... i'm slightly OBSESSED with mindless self indulgence. I'm even dreaming about them... PG

In other news. I had a job interview today to work as a computer salesperson. I think it would be awesome. If I get it, I get paid a base wage, and then can get commissions... other than that. I've had a cold for the last couple of days (it's started showing up the morning on SOUNDWAVE... grr) so I haven't been working or going to tafe very much. so it will be good to get back to work.

love peace and chicken grease =D

09 March 2008

HIM @ Metro City 23/03/08


Ville Valo, originally uploaded by Alistair Craven.

I'm so freaking excited. OMG I'm going to a HIM concert on the easter long weekend. I still can't believe that it's actually happening. OMG it's gonna be awesome. Then I can die in peace, knowing that I have seen my favouritest band LIVE. OMG so excited! =D

08 March 2008

Mindless Self Indulgence / Soundwave


Mindless Self Indulgence, originally uploaded by Maccah4.
OMG Soundwave was awesome. My fave band was Mindless Self Indulgence. I went to Soundwave with not even knowing any of there songs, but they're amazing LIVE. Jimmy (pictured) jumped around, danced, he was amazing. He even invaded the stage that was being set up for Thursday to play on. The rest of MSI were cool. If they ever come back to Perth, I will so go to there concert.

This photo was actually taken at the Perth concert of Soundwave (the one I was at) so I saw this. I'm so excited. YAY! The photographer Maccah4, has heaps of other awesome photos from Soundwave Perth, as well as BIG DAY OUT Perth, and some other concerts in Perth in the last couple of years. You should check them out, and leave comments (there doesn't seem to be very many =D)