Vertigo & Doctor Who

At 11am today I suddenly felt really dizzy. You know the feeling you get when you get out of bed too fast or stand up too fast? But I was just sitting at my desk at work, doing my work... And BAM! And it didn't go away. I made a doctors appointment, but let me get this straight, I'm not one of those people that goes to the doctor every time they feel even the slightest bit sick... Like my lovely and beautiful friend Tahlia :). And long story short, I have Vertigo. Not the movie Vertigo, but the actual diagnosed medical condition... And it hasn't gone away yet. Even now, at almost 7pm I'm still feeling dizzy. If I sit and do nothing I'm fine, as soon as I start moving... I'm done for, it feels like I'm walking around on a boat that's in the middle of a storm. Seriously, I don't even get motion sickness normally, how have I managed to get it without even being in motion??
Anyway, my doctor perscriped me some anti nausea tablets, that have helped a little, but I'm worried about work tomorrow morning. I really hope it's gone by tomorrow. I was rostered to work at Blockbuster tonight, but am lucky enough to work with some awesome people who are willing to help.

NERDY NEWS!
Michael Sheen is going to be in the episode of Doctor Who written by Neil Gaiman. How fucking awesome is that? One of my favourite actors, in an episode of my favourite show written by my favourite writer.

Fucking Michael Sheen. Seriously excited. He is one of the best actors, he can play action, comedy, thriller... In the movie I watched last night (Unthinkable) he spend 90% of the film being tortured!! It was brutal, but it was a good movie.

Neil Gaiman is epic... Doctor Who... Oh my fucking god, I'm just so excited.

False King by Two Steps From Hell

My weekend was relatively internet free, except for a few Tumblr reblogs, and checking what time the movies were on at the cinema. I managed to organise my stationery, pack some more boxes and get some serious fan-fiction writing done. I ALSO FOUND MY UNI INFO BOOKS, so I don't have to use my iPad to read them (it was starting to hurt my eyes)

Check out my awesome organisation skills. I'm going to change it a little, because I found more plastic tumblers at work, so I'm going to sort the pencils into "normal" and "watercolour" and "lead" I have so much stationery I should open my own stationery store... speaking of stationery stores... OFFICEWORKS opens in 2 weeks time :) I'm so freaking excited.

Final inspection of our new house is on Friday. I'm excited. And then next Tuesday we start to move in. I'm not sure how I'm feeling about the move. I haven't had any emotional breakdowns over it, but I do find myself feeling a bit sad sometimes... at really stupid times, like when I'm lying in bed looking at the ceiling and realising I won't get to see the ceiling everyday... weird things like that. I am really looking forward to moving, but not leaving. All the memories. I've been taking some really weird photos of the house, like little things, like the ceiling in the lounge room, the picture rail in my room, the bathroom doors... really weird right? But that will be the stuff I'll miss the most.

I've watched 9 NEW movies in the last week. I've written them in my list, but haven't written reviews for them yet. I'm trying only to watch movies I haven't seen. I'm 28% done with my 100 new movies list. CHECK IT OUT... and recommend me some movies that I haven't seen yet :)

Moving Day.

March 29th. That's the settlement date. That's when we have a new house. Which is really good, because we don't have to be out of here until April 9th or something, so we have a couple of days to move.

Anyway, that's all. See you on Monday (having internet free weekend!)

About life, packing, tweens, going to the movies and internet free weekend.

So completely over my emo state I had earlier this week. Sorry about that, I actually lost a follower :(

Starting to get back into it. Life is starting to sort itself out. Still have no idea when we're moving house, I have a rough idea, but if that rough idea is correct, it's in 2 weeks time, which is pretty scary. I've asked dad, but he doesn't know anything about it either.

My work situation is getting better. Hopefully soon I'll be getting 25.5 hours a week, working 2 jobs. But I'm really unsure if I actually want to leave Blockbuster, but I really don't want to work nights or weekends anymore (and they're the only times I'll be available) I don't want to have to pay to rent movies :)

I started writing lists of things to do and organise. Like change of address! What a bitch that is going to be. And the packing is still pretty much none existent! But most of the stuff that still needs to be sorted are things I use day to day, and things that will probably get thrown out.

Just watched the music video for Friday by Rebecca Black. seriously, apparently she's the next "Justin Bieber" all I can say is. SERIOUSLY CHILDREN! DON'T YOU HAVE ANY REAL MUSIC TASTE? ARE YOU TONE DEATH? Wow... Just wow. My opinion, don't waste 3 minutes and 48 seconds of your life, just don't watch it. You've probably heard it played a bazillion times on the radio by now anyway. This chick makes Justin Bieber seem not that bad (yep, that's my official statement... There is now someone worse than Justin Bieber)

PICSPAM TIME

I might go to the movies tonight. I really want to see Battle: Los Angeles. It looks pretty epic. I wish I had friends that were actually interested in Sci-Fi movies... plus would actually pay to go see a movie at the cinema. "It's so expensive... blah blah blah... bitch bitch bitch" seriously $15? You don't HAVE to buy anything from the snackbar. You pay your $15 and go and sit down... that's it. You get to see a movie in the best quality, the only way you'll ever get to see a movie in that quality again is to pay 10s of thousands of dollars to buy your own cinema setup. SERIOUSLY... $15! It's going to cost you more than that when you go to the pub instead and get so drunk you don't remember what you did. Seriously... and I'm the weird one because I want to spend "heaps" of money going to the cinema. Hmmmmmm! What ever!

Anyway. I'm going to try and have an internet free weekend. The plan is tonight fill my ipod with music and actually TURN MY COMPUTER OFF, instead of just putting it to sleep. And see how long I can last without my computer/internet. See you on Monday... or sooner, depending on how much fail I have :)

New Hair

My hair is no longer red. Well it's still red, but not "crazy" red. Tracey (who I do my Volunteer work for) was very naughty and booked and paid for me to get my hair dyed. I was so angry at her, because I was completely fine with doing it myself, but she insisted. I will have to get her something nice. I have no photos of it yet, but I may have found a new hairdresser. It was such a nice environment and Kate (the hairdresser) was nice, like was genuinely interested to talk, unlike some.
So this morning Target was a lot happier. I've actually got more compliments about this colour then I did with the red.... I do miss it.

That's all for today. Not feeling very inspired to blog... or do anything for that matter. :(

this town is so fucking small and narrow minded. no wonder there is no one interesting in this fucking town, as soon as they're old enough they leave. they go somewhere where they're not forced to become grey fucking conforming robots. TARGET POLICY! so that girl with blue hair working at Target in Melbourne has a natural hair colour?? I was just trying to be someone other than me. trying to make this slow depressing little hole that I call my life a little bit more comfortable, a little bit less like I wanted to jump from the fucking gap. I'm sick of hiding my feelings from the people in my offline life, they all think I'm a happy person, but I'm not. I don't think I can hide it anymore. I don't think I can pretend anymore. But then I think it would be easier on the people I love if I didn't bother them with my feelings, they're going through their own shit at the moment, so maybe it would be easier for me just to step back into line and conform. Just put some sticky tape over the cracks in my mask and just keep "being happy" the needs of the many, outweigh the needs of the few.

but then i feel selfish for being so emo. tonight there are millions of people without homes, thousands who have lost family members (some more than one.... some whole families) people whose whole life was washed away by something that we can't control, and there are people being murdered, being raped and tortured, children being taken from their families and sold into the sex trade, or into child work houses. I'm so lucky, how can I complain about how unhappy I am? HOW THE FUCK CAN I SAY THAT MY LIFE SUCKS??? I'm so selfish, we all are. It could happen to us too, one minute we have everything, the next... it's all gone. we take it all for granted. ALL THIS SHIT I HAVE TO PACK INTO BOXES TO MOVE, boxes and boxes of books and dvds, technology I DIDN'T need but bought anyway, because it was cool. ALL WORTHLESS. I would give it all away for my families guaranteed safety. I would give my life for their safety, without even blinking.

BREATHE

Maybe I was silly to think it would be okay. Difference scares people. Especially with 60% of the staff members are over 35, and 98% of them work when I work.

In other news, my Uncles' partners' twin sister is "coming back" to work at Target. Bit strange. I'll walk up to her and be like "we're related... kinda, through marriage... but not really, because they're not married" LOL. That makes me happy. I'm very moody. I feel strangely elated at the moment, even after that rant... and the one earlier this evening. Okay I'm seriously weirded out now. STUPID FUCKING HORMONES!

So I have to change my hair colour. It needs to be more "natural" and I'm upset about it. I REALLY LOVE THIS COLOUR, but if I want to go back to work I'll have to change it. I didn't cry at work about it, and I haven't cried about it yet, but I might. I'm upset and angry, but part of me knew that there would be a chance that I would have to change it, and I'm already kind of over the looks I got. They're not bad looks, but they're different. I bought a 8 wash natural brown to run through my hair and hopefully that will tone it town... but I'm thinking it might just be easier to just get a permanent darker red colour. I don't want to run the brown through and make it look like shit.

BREATHE

I tried to be myself. I tried to stop worrying about what others thought, I finally decided to stop fucking caring, and now I'm back to the beginning, it was thrown back in my face.

BREATHE

Whatever. I might just buy some black hair dye and go back to being a depressed little girl in a happy smiling mask. That's what they seem to want.