I've Given Up Thinking Of Names

Back at work today, and what a day. At 8.45 this morning it was 28 degrees Celsius. 28! at 9am... in ALBANY! Blasphemy. I was awful, I was so glad that I was going to work... nice air conditioned work, where I can stand at the checkout, under the air con and just be cool all morning... WRONG! I got to work, served one customer and then was asked to help put stock away in ladies ware. I'm not complaining, it was a pretty awesome job, I loved it, but all the moving around and carrying clothes made me very hot and sweaty. It was gross. But I did enjoy it, and when I was finally called back to the checkouts I only had 45 minutes left of my shift. YAY!
When I walked out of work it was hot, probably mid thirties, but it was very gloomy, and the second I got into my car it bucketed down, and the second I pulled into my driveway at home there was a huge crash of thunder, and it's pretty much been rainy, hot and thundery since.

Currently (it's 8pm) there are cars coming up our normally quiet street. The highway has been closed because there has been a crash. When I went to get my sister dinner at 7.30 there was 2 ambulances, 2 fire engines and 3 police cars. From what I saw, there seemed to only be one car, but they did have the jaws of life out. I hope everyone is okay. But do you know what pisses me off... the 50 or so people crowded around watching, with the phones out taking photos. It makes me sick. I just drove past, I didn't park my car and then go and take photos. If I was ever in a car crash and had to be cut from the vehicle I would hate the fact that people are taking photos of me, and sending them to their friends, or posting them on the internet. Sometimes, people sicken me :(

Anyway, the general message I'm trying to get across is... IT'S HOT!

Emotional Rambles

Feeling sad and depressed today. My nose hurts because I got sunburnt, I miss having my mum at home and the prospects of moving out scares me. I think I want to move out, I think I'm ready, it's just scary, and it's not like I don't want to leave my home (well I do, but whether I move out on my own or not, we still have to move out anyone, because it's sold). The idea of someone living in the house I've lived in for 24 years is very sad, but I know I don't have a choice. The sheer enormity of the task of packing up my room is actually starting to give me nightmares. There are pros and cons of moving out with a friend.

PROS

• more room for all my shit.
• social factors (not sure if it's a pro or a con :D)
• Possibly of getting my own cat (roommate wants dog :D)
• Away from family.

CONS

• pay more rent (max $150 a week, as opposed to $100 a fortnight board)
• tiny room if I stay at home. won't be able to fit everything in my room now, into a tiny room.
• Can't paint/renovate rental.
• Away from family.
• Extra costs (for appliances, power, water, gas etc.)

I realise there are more CONS at the moment. Doesn't matter how many times I write this PRO/CON list, I can't afford to move out at the moment. I was going to go in and resign from Blockbuster this morning, but Boss is away, and I really need all the extra money I can make, so there really is no way I can resign until I have more shifts at Target, or another second job. Did I ever mention before, how much I HATE money?

And to add to all the other stress, I'm trying to decide if I should withdraw from my course. I haven't done any work on it yet, and with all this shit that's going on I'm not really in the right frame of mind to do it, but my problem is, I have until 27th January to withdraw and not have to pay anything, after that date I have to pay a certain percentage.... but if I withdraw before that date... what if I regret it later? I just had a look at the withdrawal policies and it looks harder to withdraw than it does to just finish the course. And knowing me, this is just a faze I'm going through because I'm feeling a little depressed. I think I need to get myself organised. I've started the new year a mess, literally, emotionally, physically and mentally, so I need to clean up. And that is where I'll leave you today. Back into real life mode tomorrow.

Adventures

Actually did outdoorsy family stuff today (well minus Kaitlin, whose currently in Perth dying of heat!) We, as in Mum, Dad, Alex, Aunty Jo, Uncle Brian, Aunty Sarah, Uncle Justin, Logan and I went out to Waychinicup Inlet (it's a sheltered rocky bay, prefect for kayaking, fishing, swimming etc.) and well did all those things I just mentioned plus more. Logan (whose almost 2) and I built sandcastles... well I built, he just knocked them down and giggled evilly. Unfortunately I didn't get any photos. I took my camera, but forgot :( I did however SWIM. Yep I swam, for the first time in like a million years, and it was awesome. But after I forgot to put new sunscreen on and got a little bit sunburnt on my nose, luckily I don't have work until Wednesday. Hopefully it will not be as red then. I was fun!

Here's a photo I stole from wikipedia of Waychinicup....

the tide was a lot further out today, there was pretty much NO water between us and those rocks.

Next time I go on an adventure I promise to take photos. I have a new camera I got for my birthday and I've pretty much never used it. It's a lot better for close up people photos, not landscapes.

Currently...

Listening.

Reading.

Watching. 

Underworld: Rise Of The Lycans... again (for the 3rd time this week)

Buying.

Wanting.

first movie I'm going to watch on my iMac? Star Trek of course, DUH!

Trying.

LOL. I wish :D

Loving.

Planning.

2011 Moleskine. It's so pretty and red and empty. Need to full it with pretties.

Writing.

Inspired by.

Molly Is...

... excited. I may have found someone awesome to rent a house with. She started out as a friend of a friend, but we're friends now, she's studying art externally through Curtin (I think), she likes all the same music as me, and I think we could co-habitate together with minimal fuss :) Now all I need is more shifts at Target or another second job (I'm going to quit Blockbuster as soon as financially possible) I need at least $300 a week income to afford to pay $100 a week rent, I also get just under $200 a week after tax from Target, so I am pretty close, and after I get some money from mum, I won't have to think too much about credit card payments, so that just leaves $50 a week for my phone/internet and $65 a fortnight for my loan repayments. I think it's within my grasp. Hopefully we can find something in town that's nice. She doesn't have her drivers license, so we'd have to be close to town (but that doesn't bother me) and she has a boyfriend, but he's pretty awesome anyway, so that's not going to be a problem at all. The only downfall is I wouldn't be able to have a cat, because she's allergic, but that is not a problem, because I don't think I would be at home enough to be able to care for a cat.
I feel ready to move out, but I'm scared... I guess everyone gets a little bit scared when they first move out. :)

The Year Of ME!

Today, my blog is 3 years old. That's pretty amazing.

January 1st 2008 - FIRST EVER POST. I didn't even mean to start blogging on January 1st, but I was at work at the time, and was so bored and I came across a link or another blog and thought why not. I'd been blogging for a year or two before Blogger, but that blog no longer exists online (but it was shit anyway)
January 1st 2009 - This post made me laugh. I state that I won't be blogging that much anymore, that I'm trying to "minimise my reliance on the internet" LOL that failed pretty epically :)
January 1st 2010 - This post is technically January 4th, but it's the first post of the year, and is part 2 of my introduction. It's finny reading the post in 2008 and then this post and see how much I've changed (and not).

I was going to do "introduction 3.0" but you all pretty much know me pretty intimately anyway. Instead I'm going to tell you what I want out of 2011.

Be Healthier.

 I'm not going to say lose weight, because from my past experiences with New Year Resolutions, saying "Lose Weight" is pretty much an automatic fail for me. So "Be Healthier". I want to be physically, mentally and emotionally healthier. I've decided that I will take a leaf out of my mothers book and make 2011 the year of ME!

Save Money.

This is a big one. I've never in my life, been able to save money. I'm completely useless, I'm a shopaholic. After the house sells, mum is going to give me a substantial sum of money. I'm going to buy my iMac and the rest (which will be able half) will be going onto my credit card. I'm not going to cancel my credit card, but I am going to hide it from myself and NOT USE IT. Then I will be able to stop worrying about all the interest I'm getting charged, and start saving.

365 in 365.

A list (which is currently incomplete) of things to do this year. I'm having a hard time thinking of 365 things to do, but so far I've done one, and if you don't tell my mother, I think I'm going to do #13 on Tuesday.

That's really it. Keeping it relatively simple this year. Hope everyone has an awesome new year.