:(

feeling a bit blah today.

the new owners are going to be here tomorrow.

i really should tidy a little.

but it depresses me.

my mother is here.

i still feel so awkward around her.

no one should feel like that around your own mother.

she's like a different person now.

it's not a bad thing. i'm glad that she's sorting her life out.

i just feel left behind.

lost.

empty.

things i don't like feeling.

i miss her.

i hate not knowing what sort of things i'll feel when i get up in the morning.

i could of seriously stayed in bed all day today.

but life has to move on.

i have to keep moving forward.

i'm making my life as busy as possible.

so i don't spend much time with my own thoughts.

if my brain is preoccupied with other things

i don't have time to feel sorry for myself.